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| Your Life Path Number is 3 |
Your purpose in life is to express your unique self.
You are a creative and artistic person with an interesting view on life.
Witty and outgoing, you enjoy sharing your crazy ideas with anyone who will listen.
A total social butterfly, you're the life of any party.
In love, you inspire and enchant your partner. You are often an object of fantasy and desire.
While you are very talented, you sometimes lack the ambition to put your talents in play.
And while your wit carries you a long way, you occasionally use it to mask your true feelings.
Your natural abilities can bring you all the success in the world ... if you let them |
name: -==[[ LKY aka kOoNzy aka kOonKoOn ]]==-
age: -==[[ 19 nineteen ]]==-
D.O.B: -==[[ 27 May 1987 ]]==-
school: -==[[ Lasalle SIA ]]==-
MSN: -==[[ blade_527@hotmail.com ]]==-
Treasures
**for where you heart is, your treasure will be**
God is number ONE and everything will just fall in place!
my Spiritual Father and Mother (Pst How & Pst Lia)
my Spiritual Family
Heart of God Church
Loves
instrument: guitar, piano etc...
colour: Pink, black, white etc...
food: anything related to Potatoes
drink: china apple drink, green apple juice
fruit: green apple, durians etc...
i do loves children a lot a lot! dun you think they are just so cute and beyone that each and everyone is an unpolish diamond and it is all up to the people ard them to make them who they are in the future! Fighter and Leaders for God i believe!
love to bring a smile to every faces. that's a goal in my everyday life =]
Wishes
"wishing and praying to the Son of God, for blessing and gifting and everthing hot. thank you Lord, for what i got, and You, are my true and only God!"
families and friends around me will get save and come to know my DADDY! Grow in Him and walk with Him, blessing from Him and never leave Him!
more younger Generations will get save and no broken Families in the name of Jesus!
all broken hearts will be heal and all rejects will be accepted in the house of God!
Archives
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December 2006
January 2007
February 2007
October 2007
Recent Scribbles
Back for once
The Walk of Faith
ordinary and extraordinary
due to popular demand
I can see the Hell is trembling
fun time! =]
Awkwardness...
WARNING! (emo post... dun read if u r not prepared.)
JOYEST MOMENT! =D
Path That Shines
Tuesday, December 12, 2006
*[[ fun time! =] ]]*
WAHAHA! some FUn TIme in church! let me show you guys! haha... we took more pics! wahaha... =]
woOHOo...Ciaoz| 3:14 AM
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Saturday, December 09, 2006
*[[ Awkwardness... ]]*
there are a few things that i really regrets saying out..
i should not have say i want to be like my leader, towards his leader. their closeness and heart that are willing to serve each other. i should not have say that out due to the urge of rising up. Ivan is right, he once say..."dun talk the talk"... if you want to serve your leaders and God wholeheartedly, do it through actions not through talks... and i should have known all those thing is not possible. if i can rewind and delete what ever is done, that is one of the thing that i will want to delete.
i am sick and tired or rising up and falling back, rising up and falling back. What brother Sky said is so true la... i really need a channel to release all my emotional burden, all my doubts and wadever is inside of me. i need someone to be there who i can really trust to share all the burden inside me and all the smallness inside me. if not this routine will continue forever... and eventually backsliding will be the last solution.
on the 2nd last week of November... the word 'BACKSLIDING' came in so strongly into me. it is just that close for me to just walk out once again. but something hold me back, i went for that week service and Sister Evie talk to me. after that talk, it hold me back from backsliding for the time being... as Sis Evie say "can you promise me just to come for every service and just receive from the word of God? dun walk away from God... if you really walk away from God, we will all be very sad." i did not promise her, as i am afraid that i will break that promise once again. (thank your sis Evie for that talk, it comforted me for that time)
after a few weeks, Brother Sky talked to me and share with me his own experience and everything he said is really so similar, because he was once my age, and he went through all those stages before. he given me alot of solutions, and i know it will help me... just like i know i am sick and those medicine can cure me, i still chose not to take those medicine and just waiting for my body imune system to fight those bacterial on themself. i refuse to call for recuitment... and i just chose to let thing go by itself...
i am sitting at a corner and rotting myself...
many will say i am stupid, why stay there and rot and did not even wanna try... at least there is still hope for you to succeed... but... no trust=no hope=rot and die. i wont die so easily... but will rot slowly...
Brother Sky say..."you can rest, but not too long... it is just like the muscle structure.. once you are stretched, u have to rest in order for it to grow stronger... but once it rest for too long, it will turn saggy... turn into fats" (something like that) i did not know wad to respond to Brother Sky... so i just kept quiet.
on thursday night, Ivan went up to me... "i read your blog"... shock of coz... and he started to ask me some question. it is not that i dun enjoy doing all those things, i enjoy... but.. there are some reasons why i chose this path... i know i am really small, but it just cannot come out of me. through those eyes of disappointment, my heart broke... i just cannot handle my roller coaster emotion well... i did not want to disappoint my leader thou, but when ever i was thinking of coming back to the frontline, i am afraid... and something is drawing me real down. there is just a strong power that rubbish all the thoughts of rising up again.... it is just like a computer kana virus. cannot control and is out of control...
i cannot believe it... i am once a person who always console ppl and tell them not to give up in God, but here i am struggling with this problem.. and i still need those newer people to tell me what they went through... and tell me not to give up.
the pride is back, i am easily offended once again. i am no longer teachable and my heart is hearden. my rebellious nature is coming out again... HELP! how can get all this roots out of me... DEVIL I HATE YOU!
emoing
kOoNzy
woOHOo...Ciaoz| 12:21 PM
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Saturday, December 02, 2006
*[[ WARNING! (emo post... dun read if u r not prepared.) ]]*
there are lots of emotions that wanna express through blog, but it will stumble others. there are lots of things to say, but it will stumble others too! the concept of online diary is really contridicting.
been through high tides and low ones, but now i think it had been drained out. when will the next rain pour again? when will those high tides come again? or will it be a tsunami that will wipe out the whole island the next time... and no survivor. sad isen it? but well... there is no happy ending all the time.
on thursday, there it come the zone resructure ONCE AGAIN. there are not much changes, but what that had changed is the heart of mine. harden? maybe... lowest peak? yes. coz things just change without you realising till one day it just hit you. this is the path that i chose, who to blame? no one but myself. how small can i be... very very very i must say... what is the thing that led to this situation now... it is not only one thing for sure!
this fall is not the same as other falls that i had. the last few falls, there are still hope of climbing back. but this time round, it is different. dun have the urge to climb up and reach the top any more, coz i see no point in it. so what if you reach the top? reaching the highest peak means you will have to come down one day. you cant stay there for long. or maybe it just apply to myself.
maybe is like wad Pastor had preached, it is the dreams and vision that drives us to have self control and discipline and will look forward to everyday life. my dream had been shattered and can no longer see vision, that is why the result is... going downhill. try riding a bike down a hill, there is no way u can stop it unless it reaches the lowest ground. you will either reach safely or you will get crashed and die.
if u wanna rise up, better catch what ever chance given to you and better dun lose it and do your best. if not, when ur season is over, no matter how much u do it is still going to waste, coz the attention is no longer in you, there are the second wave that had came after you.
no one wanna be a expired canned food. be consume while u r still fresh, when it is expired, u will just end up in the trash bin, Unless it is poverty period where they bo bian but to consume u.
lost the motivation, missed the attention. running the race without a vision. help... i am drowning.
emo-ing
kOoNzy
woOHOo...Ciaoz| 9:42 PM
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different ppl, different emotions, different backgrounds, different encounters, different thinkings, different likings, different lookings and different callings.
Every walking individual is a master piece by God. YOU are carefully and wonderfully made. dun suspect! you are good looking.
there are lots of mountains in this world. those that you can see and those that you cannot. it may be small and it can be big, but there is no mountain too big to overcome as we are all OVERCOMERS!
things you see now may be truth, but things changes through time... what seem to be truth, may not be that way... but the truth that never changes is the Love of God.
